“You will know the right thing to do when the time is right to do it.”
I think God doles out trust one moment at a time, because as much as I try to generate my own, grace must kiss my trembling lips before they utter, “I believe.”
And aren’t we all kind of like blind Bartimaeus,*
groping our way through dark nights of the soul?
Seeing the way through our dilemmas doesn’t generate trust. Trust nestles in our hearts before the wings of the dawn highlight a clear path.
Even though we cannot generate our own trust, we can whisper the words of another who doubted so long ago: “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”
And then those gentle, all too familiar words return to our mind, like the exhortation Philip received when he struggled with trust: “Don’t you know me, Philip, even after I have been among you such a long time?”
I don’t know about you, but I feel ashamed when I don’t trust. Gosh, I’ve had a lifetime of experiences to convince me just how trustworthy God is. Yet, when confusing circumstances come along, I become like a frightened child who’s scared and thinks she’s lost her way in a dark forest.
In those moments, I don’t need the Lord to roar like a mighty Aslan, but merely to whisper, “This is the way, walk in it.”
Yet most of the time this doesn’t happen, so I must trust while I tarry in those dark places of doubt. I must wait for grace to appear. Such is the mystery of faith and the challenge of trust.
2 Replies to “Trust”
I’ve been through a lot of those dark nights, JoDee, and God has always given me what I need when I need it. Thank you for this wonderful message!
Norma, I’m convinced your encouragement will light the way for others who still wait in the darkness. Thank you for sharing God’s faithfulness!